As an introvert, I love the quiet. There’s little I love more than a quiet Saturday at home with my family. Home is where I’m that most at peace. It’s where I scrapbook, read, and create homemade meals for my family.
Just the same, I have to get out. I have to have friends to turn to, to invest in, and to share with. Even my introverted nature longs for companionship, for friendship. As a woman, my soul still needs to share my hopes, dreams, worries, and fears. Especially those last two.
More often than not, I share my worries and fears with those closest to me. I tell them all about my bad dreams, the things that plague me day and night. I hash and re-hash the past, how things went that time, and why I’m worried we might have a repeat in the future.
I’ve been worrying about these things for months, some even for years. But nothing changes. Time and again I share the worries, but just talking about them doesn’t seem to change anything. The worries are still present.
While talking about it can be cathartic, it doesn’t necessarily heal the heart issue. I don’t think I’ve ever truly let Jesus take these worries from me. I don’t think I’ve ever truly let go of my darkest fears and anxiety about the future and let Him enter in.
Friends can be great, but they can’t heal the issue. Only my Savior can wipe the slate clean. And so I pray, today and everyday, that God will truly take those fears from my life, so that I can live victoriously in Him.
“There is no fear in love; instead, perfect love drives out fear, because fear involves punishment. So the one who fears has not reached perfection in love.”
-1 John 4:18 (HCSB)
“Lord, it’s so easy to dwell in fear, instead of in Your victory. Please take the following fears from my life, fully and completely….”
Megan K. Chaney