I spend so much time at work: 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, 4 weeks a month. This is a regular work schedule, but it seems like forever to me. Is my job horrible? No! My job is actually good, and I normally enjoy myself.
Why do I dread going to work? I dread work because I keep comparing it to what I want for the future. I am pregnant, and all I want to do is quit my job and raise my child. The only problem is I am not due for seven more months!
The other problem is I think God wants me to stay where I am at for the time being. I was tempted to quit, but some new circumstances make it impossible. So now I see two options (a) continue working and being miserable comparing my life to what I desire for the future or (b) continue working and focus on what God wants me to accomplish in my present situation.
This seems like simple advice, but it is so hard to get beyond my own self-focused desires. We go through many chapters in our lives; and if we compare our current chapter to our past chapters or future chapters, we may miss what God is trying to teach us at the moment.
“He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.”
– Psalm 1:3 (NIV)
“Lord, help me to push my will aside and focus on Your will for my life. Help me to go through this chapter of my life and learn what You want me to learn and touch the lives of the people around me. Help me to not compare my current chapter to my past/future chapters. Help me to accept Your timing and…”