My sweet daughter revealed several changes about herself today. She unveiled her new teeth, which I found not by sight but by touch; and unlike her overall gentle nature, these new teeth are sharp. My son has been in a phase of shyness the past few weeks; and while I’d hoped this would clear up before he started school, it did not.
I’m not sure why it has started, and I’m striving to let it go. I was a bit saddened when I saw his craft today. He told me he had made a shy face because he was shy today. While his teachers said he was good, I’m interested to see how they react when he reaches his comfort zone and lets his true self show.
This evening my daughter continued to amaze me with her new talents. Her brother recited the “Pizza Man” rhyme, and she decided to clap along. Her first claps! Then, when it came time to “toss it up HIGH!” she tilted her head towards me, smiled so I almost melted, and threw her hands up in the air.
And at this I realized another change – my baby’s no longer a baby. It seems like every day I’m wanting something to change. I want to be thinner, tanner, blonder, older, younger, more experienced, less uptight. I pray for more inspiration, less on my plate, strong friendships, and banished temptations.
I ask for more knowledge, less guilt, increased understanding, and fewer mistakes. In some ways, I get what I ask for; it’s just not always in the way I’d expect it. I’m learning about patience and humility; about true friendship and loyalty; about beauty and appreciation of God’s creation. Time does change me, and I can trace the changes time has made.
I can reflect on the blessings He has given me over time. I know that He’s teaching me and giving me things I’ve prayerfully requested according to His timing. Even being able to recognize that all these experiences are His teachings shows the ch-ch changes I’m undergoing.
“He changes times and seasons; he sets up kings and deposes them. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning.”
– Daniel 2:21 (NIV)
“Father, help me to be content with my life and the person You made me to be. God, I give all my worry and anxiety to You. You are daily changing me into a better person according to Your will, and I thank You. Father, help me to be grateful for all the blessings You have given me, including…”